The fear of admitting/accepting that you have a mental Illness

This topic is very close to my heart because for many years my family and friends told me that they thought i had something mental going on. That I had an anger issue or that my physical symptoms, like being unable to raise my arms over my head were rooted in my mind. I vehemntly denied all these allegations and i can tell you why. I was scared. At that time in my life around 2012 mental illness very much taboo and nobody talked about it and i didnt understand it. I was afriad to accept that I had a mental illness because I thought that meant that it was on me, that it was in. my head, that i was doing something wrong and that there was no cure. I would have much rather been accused of having a broken leg the cure to a broken leg is much more simple and well understood by science. A broken mind however is a whole nother story. We are on the frontier of mental health science and psychology as a science itself is still very young. So i convinced myself that I had physcial illness not a psychological one because again i was afraid of what that meant. However as scary as knowing you have a mental illness can be, ignoring that you have a mental illness can be even worse. Once you can accept that theres a problem with your mind than you can begin to heal. Just like the first step to recovery for drug addiction is admitting you have a problem the same thing is true with mental illness. You must first admit that there is a mental illness and than you can begin to fight and get in the battle to win back your mind. The good news is if you've been trying to decieve yourself about not having a mental illness there are treatments for it today that we didnt have in the past and medications and therapy have all improved since when I first experience mental illness. So there is hope, i encourage you to make the brave decision of accepting that you have a mental illness therefore making your enemy visible so you can than wage war against mental illness with everything you got.